Being a writer is pretty tricky. I’d like to think of us as magicians. We magically turn letters to words and words to poems. We make words come to life while giving the reader some sense of emotions. Anything can trigger inspiration while on the other hand, anything can trigger writers’ block. I find when I am doing the most thinking, I can write more without even pausing to think about what to write next. It just flows like a river.
Before creating this blog, I used to post my random thoughts, quotes, and poems on Tumblr account for years but I had forgotten my password. Last night, I was finally able to sign in. As I began reading my work, I couldn’t help but feel stunned. All the lost memories and lost words flashed back as i had never left them behind.
Ironically, I had named my Tumblr account ‘Soulless in the city’. I say ironically because I’ve been obsessed with souls since before I can remember and if anyone is soulful it’s me. The concept of souls had always appealed to me. The mystery of it all captivated my curious mind. Back then during my Tumblr era, I had still been in hiding even though my content was accessible for people to read. The fact that I didn’t have many followers gave me a sense of comfort to release my rigid thoughts. At the time I had been going through a period of sadness where I then thought I had identified with the phrase soulless in the city. Looking back at the evolution of my soul growth I was far from soulless. It was so much easier for me to write freely than as my emotions were explosive. I couldn’t manage my emotions without putting them on paper. In the years that followed, I stopped writing for a very long time as I hadn’t known how to right sappy lines without feeling sappy. I had found myself in a place of peace and happiness which made it hard to write anything. I went through a drought for a few years then one day it all came back to me. I soon learned that I hadn’t lost my touch, I just needed time to channel this sense of emotion to write. Like a fire pit, just a little bit of fire to light the pit.
When I decided on the name of this blog I contemplated flipping my Tumblr name which would have been ‘Soul in the city’. I felt something was missing and I wasn’t sold on the idea. I am so glad I didn’t follow through with that name for my blog. It wouldn’t have captured the essence of what I wanted to create. Soulless was a phase I had gone through that allowed me to spill my bits of darkness. On the flip side Polish the Soul has allowed me to spill bits of light. The light I hadn’t thought much about until I began researching the universe. The girl I was then and the woman I am today, worlds apart. She slept in darkness and this woman sleeps in light. Trust me, I am a mix of light and dark but my light outweighs my darkness. I’m a magical woman!
Polish The Soul xx
Unsolicited Opinions will always find there way onto your doorstep, maybe more often than you’d like. Opinions will always just be opinions as long as you have the ability to differentiate between facts and opinions. Everyone should be heard and allowed to speak their minds to an extent. There will be people who know nothing about you that will feel the need to share their unsolicited opinions of you or accuse you of things you aren’t even guilty of. It isn’t your job to internalize their opinions of you. Especially, someone who doesn’t know you from a hole in the wall. It is a tough pill to swallow to hear it but for your sanity, you must refuse to allow it to affect you. There will be ignorant people who will speak to your abilities as if they know anything about you and the problem with people who express opinions that are inaccurate is that they believe they’re right when you know in your heart that they’re wrong. Pretending the words don’t hurt is harder than we’d hope it would. Words are just words but they hurt. The feeling will certainly pass eventually but the words will remain in the back of your mind. If you’re anything like me, you will probably overthink it.
Yesterday, I experienced first hand what it was like to receive negative feedback regarding my work. The words replayed in my head over and over and I just cannot understand it. At the end of the day, people are entitled to their opinions but as I said it isn’t our job to internalize it. People will believe what they believe but the most important thing to do is to stay true to who you are and never stop shining. SHINE! Keep shining and never let the opinions of others keep you down. You’re so much more than that. Let the negativity roll off your shoulders and keep working hard. Be strong enough to fight the urge to break down and fall apart.
Polish The Soul xx